How to save a life

It's that immense suffering, that feeling you have, like someone is tearing out your soul, that doubt, resentment, despair, self-loathing, powerlessness and vulnerability, that misery you just let yourself bathe in, that moment when you feel like you've reached rock bottom and no one can pick you up, when you hate yourself so much, it makes you sick to your stomach just by looking in the mirror, when you're exhausted, you don't want anyone's help, anyone's advice, you hate it when people even look at you, when you feel like the world died, like there is no tomorrow, when you choke with every breath you take, when your eyes show nothing but emptiness and bitterness, when your lungs hurt from screaming and your knuckles bleed from hitting walls, when the slightest effort to get out of bed makes you dizzy and nauseous, when you hate daylight, you hate darkness, you hate colors, when you don't wanna eat, drink or smoke, when your eyelids are so heavy that you can't fully open your eyes but you don't wanna close them either, when you are so tired but you can't fall asleep, when you listen to the same song for hours even though you can't even hear the lyrics anymore, when you drift away in memories for a while, then come back to reality and then drift away again, when you feel hopeless and forsaken, when you feel like you're falling into a deep, dark pit and once you have reached the bottom there is no escape, when only fear and failure dwell within your mind, when you don't remember how old you are and for how long you've been lying in that bed, when you start reminiscing about all the stupid things you've said or done and feel so ashamed, when you feel like you've lost everything you ever wanted or loved, when you just know that there's no one and nothing out there that could make you happy again, when every word anyone utters feels like a lie, when a day seems like a year, when you realize how deafening silence truly is, when it seems like everything around you moves in slow motion, when blinking feels like a night's sleep, when the clock ticks louder and louder, when you feel like no one knows who you are, like you could die right there and no one would care.